nails

it can be very strange for me to participate in what our society calls "womanly." today was one of those days... shopping, hair, make-up, getting nails done. i don't know when these activities became so foreign to me, or if i have always felt a little strange to focus so much attention on frivilous, "beautifying" persuits. (oh gosh! i just chipped one of my freshly painted nails typing!) haha... so much time and energy someone put into making my nails look beautiful... ruined in 25 minutes! what is the point?
one of the girls mentioned how after getting things like this done you don't feel like doing anything active incase it ruins your nails, hair, whatever. so we value this "beauty" while limiting our movements and other (more beneficial) activities. no. women, we must sit beautiful; that is what society tells us. and this is what so many accept and consider normal without question.
i sat down with the other women to let my nails dry and our conversation turned into a gossip session about the latest celebrities and their love lives.
i cannot help but feel like i'm getting lost in world with shallow focus. the thing is, i know each of these women i've spend time with "gossiping" is brilliant and has great potential in this world. why do they put on the face of the pretty woman? the act of the needy woman? material woman? incapable woman? ditsy woman? have i always been so different? probably not. but things look so different to me now. and i wish we could all see, and be set free to live without these pressures to be simply beautiful and needy (in order to get a man, which seems to be the goal of so many women's lives) but to live freely and love... knowing each one is uniquely beautiful and capable of spreading love and beauty in the world.
may we all experience such a feat in this adventure.